I sometimes wish I had an on/off switch in my mind.
something that would stop me from thinking.
I just feel like sometimes I'm a balloon with so much pressure going on inside of me that Im going to go 'pop' at any second. Sometimes I wish it would all just go away so I could feel the silence. (tunage moment)
Sometimes I wish I had more time. Enough time to read all the books I have brought but "haven't got round to reading," more Time to meet friends for coffee "without worrying whether I am going to miss another appointment" Enough time to Pray for two yours solidly "without having to cut something out of my day" Enough time to go running like I used too or even to do some art.
Sometimes I wish distance wasn't such a big issue. that I could walk to give someone a hug insteed of two hours in a car. or a four minute trip to make a friend a cup of tea instead of four hours. Be closer when I want to be like that car advert when people simple push buildings out the way and make distances shorter by my own strength.
Sometimes I wish we didnt have stuff. like voicemail and consumerism. and 16 definitions to explain one thing.
Sometimes I wish that I understood my thought right now, that I wouldn't be so puzzled by the enigma that is me.
Sometimes I wish for easy answers to hard problems
I pray to God that these wishes don't come true. I began writing this blog to just write. Its 1am I cant sleep but actually I just had a revelation that I dont want these things not really. Having Barriers and problems makes the adventure worth it, makes it more worthwhile. I am writing an assignment and yes there are 16 different definitions to the word 'Sex' (see below) and yeah the distance thing is sucky but what you get when you get to the destination is more than worth the trip.
Gods pretty cool. (understatement of the year)
(my assignment is on people who work free willingly in the sex trade. they are seen as a marginalised group and are seen in a variety of different ways and positions. I find it really interesting but thats proberly because I am werid)
