Generally I find when God teaches you or shows you something important the devil tries to stop you from applying your new found knowledge or gifting for heavens work.
I have had this recently, I have put myself in a position where I was open to my good old self esteem issues.
'No one will ever love me like that, how could they?'
'Whats the point? Im useless'
Because of this situation I slept for a total of 52 hours which if I am honest was pretty impressive laziness. I wanted to avoid the world and everyone in it (sorry) Sleep was a method to avoid the pain. If i am asleep I cant feel. Sleep in good.
Today and Sunday (although I was trying my best to hold it all together) I was reminded at the fact that I was Unique. Beautifully Unique. There is no one like me, no one who looks like Rachel, no one whose personality is like mine and no one whose light shines just like mine.
So instead of delving into a world of self-pity for yet another week. I am going to attempt to pull myself together and remember that I may not be beautiful like the rest of the world but I have beauty in my uniqueness and one day maybe just maybe someone may fall in love with that uniqueness.
